Step One

 

We admitted we were powerless

I choked on those first words

My job was to fix everything

That admission was absurd

 

The harder that I struggled

The tighter my world got

It wasn’t my addiction

I had to make you stop

 

My life was utter chaos

Of course,  no fault of my own

The more I fought against it

The more I felt alone

 

When at last I had surrendered

I had no spirit left

I felt my burden lifted

No longer felt bereft

 

And then brightness touched me

A warmth within me grew

That God can’t do his job for me

If I won’t let him through

 

I opened up my swollen eyes

Like a newborn baby might

Then opened up my heart again

And welcomed in the light

 

And though I feel such sadness

A sorrow that’s profound

I can’t remove this weight from you

Those shackles have you bound

 

So I handed you back over

To what was meant to be

Sorting and rebuilding

Reclaiming what was me

 

And through this revelation 

Your journey to get through

I’ll move ahead and shine the light

And lead the way for you

 

I hope this touches someone, when I am feeling low and that's where I am right now, I write.  It helps me process.  I hope my sharing means something to someone else. I am feeling so sorry for myself today that I can't think.  And I need to pull myself out of this and recapture me.

Hi Sallen!

Thank you for sharing the poem.  I really enjoyed it and related to it.

I too find that writing things out  helps me to sort things out when my mind gets chaotic, and helps me to let go of the "junky" thoughts that get stuck in my head.

Thanks again!  Have a great day!

David