okay, here is the deal...there is something my HP must believe I am just not getting.  I believe that when your HP is trying to teach one of his/her "gentle lessons" he will keep trying until the realization of the lesson dawns on you.  Well, there must be something I am not getting because I feel like this lesson is slapping me in the face.  I realize that if you do what you have always done, you will get what you have always gotten.  I am trying to change. Implementing coping skills, setting boundaries, turning it over to Him, and letting go.  Yet, it seems as if nothing is changing.  Not sure what I am suppposed to be getting.

I hear you!   I wonder why Life or The Universe keeps setting  up with alcoholics at every turn.  Sure, I have made choices,  really unaware of what an alcoholic really was.  But just seems like they are at every bend in the road.   Why Me?, stuff !!!  Get the sign off my back.

But then, lately, and friend and I have been talking about, that  perhaps not  knowing what to do is OK.  

[In the past we always knew what to do, nothing baffled us.   oh, to be young again or this or that again}

Turning it over, letting go, and  not knowing outcomes is OK.    So..........out of all this confusion, maybe something will work out just  fine.   I will be 50 this fall, and throw up my arms, and say "I dunno"  And that's  OK   

Hi Powerless - It sounds like you are trying to do things differently so you are changing yourself and in time you will feel better whether things around you change or not. Did you have other expectations? When I started trying to work my program and changed my reactions I expected the people around me to change too. It didn't happen but I began to feel better when I stopped watching others for change. Just my thoughts. Love in Recovery - Dot (((((((((Powerless))))))))