I'm on step one..........I am powerlees over alcohol, my live has become unmangeable.

Please tell me about your experience with step one.

Mandy,

Step One was easy for me.  I had hit my bottom very hard!!!  In all aspects of it!  My whole family had been pulling me in a million different directions.  I was miserable and spinning out of control.

I was at a complete loss as to what I should be doing and didn't really care about anything which was horible as I have 2 children that need my love and full attention!!!

I was told about Alanon and called our local # and felt I had no options for help as I am a stay at home mom and had no way of getting away from the home.  I am grateful that I  found MIP and learned from the others ESH on this board.  My HP was deffinately looking out for me that day I did a google search for alanon and found this room.  It has truely saved my life and restored me to some sanity.

I did not take me long to let go and truely see that I was powerless and that my life was unmanageable.

I am now at a good place with not much anger and the weight I was some how lugging around is gone!! what a relief!!!

I work my program do reaserch and try to understand myself and what I need and have seen that not only did the disease take over my life but my children as well.  In my recovery I have seen progress in myself and in my children.

I was deffinately sicker than the alcoholic in my life.  Now I go to F2F meetings and know that I CAN go and my AH amazingly supports it but the first 3 months were done here on this board and in the chat room.

I am sooooo grateful that I found MIP!! The serenity prayer and the 3C's.

Love in recovery

JJ

Hi Mandy - Welcome. Step One forme was the start of a journey through the Steps that gave me my life back. When I went to my first Al-Anon meeting I thought no way was I powerless but I felt better when I left. So I went back. I got a sponsor and called her everyday. When I started talking about the a she asked me what had I done so far that day - were my dishes done - was my bed made? I was too busy feeling sorry for myself and trying to figure our what more I could do to change the a. So she told me to do one job and call her. Doing one job at a time one day at a time helped me stop obsessing about the a and begin to hear what my sponsor said and what others shared at meetings. Our literature tells us when we get busy we get better. For me, it worked. I began to take my eyes off the a and take better care of myself. I realized that all the things I had done for many years had not changed the drinking it had only made me crazy. So I stopped. It takes time but if you put the slogans to work to help you GET that first Step you'll realize you feel better. One day at a time if I remember to put First things first and Think before I speak - using Easy does it - I get better. Love and hugs - Dot

Thank you JJ

for your experience, I thank God for you writing what you wrote because just reading it helps me to know that I'm not alone.

Dot

Thank you for your experince it help's me to fouces on me and not the A's in my life.

And that I really gotta work on me not them, and that I'm the one that I can only change.