Sending love to ya's. I saw a REAL doctor today. My doc is gone for 3 weeks. Her nurse was so nice. the doc came in and she was so nice too! Made me feel right at ease. My blood pressure was not high like it is when I see my doc. My doc is a young man and his nurse is a bit of a crabby old lady... Anyway, the P.A. said she felt nothing. Well bs. This lady doc did. It is pea to marble size. She ordered an ultra sound. June 14 is the soonest. I felt all woozy and scared. I did not tell her. She was so nice. She also wants me to do a bone density test for the arthritis crap. I felt listened to and cared about and liked. They were so friendly. I hope I may be able to change to them. So who do I need, my mother who died of breast cancer in 2000. And my husband, who I cannot call. This is horrible. I cannot tell my kids and will not. It would be devistating to them. I know this. They won't even let me talk about who gets what now. I hope hp allows me to be ok. No matter what I have faith and hope in what the bible says. So I suppose it is not so horrible. ? I gotta be ok. My animals depend on me. Mainly my little Basset bandaid. so I was just telling Becky to move on and be ok without calling him. And the first one I need is my husband. NO one knows that I can touch. i don't know what to do. One day at a time. Keep close to Jehovah. But not sure what to do as far as telling anyone here. I always tell people NOT to do this stuff alone. I gotta tell ya. A neat friend I met here in the chat room still correspond. It is a guy and very much a man friend, nothing icky. I tell him and he says, oh you are ok, your boobs just are not getting enough action...typical guy lol lol hugs and love,debilyn

debilyn, I hope you are ok. My sister gets lumps all the time and they keep cutting them out, no cancer, but some very scary times. Do you have any other support network? Family, friends, co-workers ? I only have 1 really good friend, but she knows things about me that no one else knows. I have 3 sisters too but they all gossip! XOXOX to you.  

Debilyn, I'll pray for you girl and let's hope it's nothing. I have a dear friend that got through a bout of breast cancer and just recently had a lump on her remaining breast. It was just a fiberous lump. Her doctor told her it's very common...so lets pray for that outcome for you too. Love ya Christy (Cjo)

I've had lumps too, and they were just cysts. You've done what you can now, try not to think about it too much between now and the ultrasound. Do you go to face to face meetings? I know you are out in the country, so am I - meetings are few and far between, and not always full of completely healthy people, but sometimes nothing else will do but that touch of another human hand.

Debilyn,

I am glad that you got better treatment withthe doc and staff that you saw today!! 

You were saying who you need...  Well I know that you can see us here or feel our much loving hugs or here the care in our voices, but please know that there are many of us here that really do care about you and if we could give you thoes big loving caring hugs we would and that the ones I give you are that type..  I would hug you so tight that you poor boob would hurt for a week.. lol just kidding but it is that kind of hug.

I like what your friend said I hope he could make you chuckel...

You are going to be fine!!!!!! I am sending my very special prayers for you and your health!!!

Love your friend JJ

Ditto to all jj said!!! I would hug you so hard, it would squish the lump right outta there!!! I have had lumps and cysts for years. I sweat a lot because of a medication I take, and I guess that causes them. Try not to worry too much (I know easier said than done!!). You are a very special lady and a lot of people here love you very much, so lots and lots of love and prayers are headed your way!!

You are sssoooooo cool!! We have talked of fencing the animals in with us so they could come right to the door for their treats. (plus we get lawn mowed for free!!) but our neighbors would freak out!! That's the only thing we don't like about our home, darn neighbors are too close!! I can just see my horse now, he wouldn't let anyone come to the door in case they were after HIS apple!!

Take care, sweet lady, love ya! TLC

PS. I would certainly change to the doc you are most compfortable with!! After all, it's YOUR life, YOUR body!! I know it makes such a difference if you like your doc and this one seems very thorough. I know I wish my Urologist was my GP! He went over me for 1 1/2 hrs and I'm sure knows my body a LOT better than my GP does!! I like my GP very much, but he just has too many patients and not enough time.. It's scary though, I kinda have to tell him what tests I want ETC

-- Edited by TLC2 at 16:25, 2005-06-04