I spoke with my usband last night over the phone and explained that I love him very much, but explained that I am scared for our future and the children's if he stays.  He said that he does not want to leave, but will if it means saving the kids.  I went to bed with a little less worry, but am wandering if he will stick with what he says and leave on his own.  I can only pray about it.  Yes, there are a hundred times a day when I wonder if I am making the right decision.  I can only pray for guidance.

The decision that you made yesterday doesnt have to be in stone, be aware that you have options, and you have choices. Right now you have to look out for yourself and your children, yes you are powerless over the A and people, places and things. However you are not powerless over yourself, nor helpless. I am so glad you are finding your way, and feelings are just that "feelings" they are neither right nor wrong. Glad you found us, and keep coming back,,there is hope not only for you but for all of us who enter these rooms, together it seems we heal,,alone with our thoughts ,,well I beleive we fail. Take care of yourself and your needs, gardengal