Hi all, Well the second half of traveling for awhile was concluded on Saturday evening. Things went very well at home. Prior to leaving I always leave availability of enough funds to cover emergencies as I did again this time. In contrast to my past experiences where these funds ended up in lottery machine and at the liquor store while kids home alone, I was pleased to see that this did not happen this time around. It felt good to stick my neck out and trust and not get stomped. I have over the years come to expect the worst and have found my expectations to be correct most of the time. Having said that, it is a good and hopeful feeling when my expectations are wrong. I am quietly proud of her for fighting what I know was a big temptation. Guess this was a small step forward in my trusting again as well as her own feeling of being trustworthy. I will take any step forward, no matter how small it is, any day. You know I got to thinking that it is insanity to repeat the same things over and over and expect a different outcome as it has been with trust for me, but then again maybe things are not the same this time around, hence a different outcome? Maybe. Have a great week all Mark S

Hello mark s,

I am so glad you posted :) I have been looking for you. You are right in the repeating things and insanity. I am glad everything went well when you were traveling. Could it be true that when we change, things around of change? Just a thought. I hope you are doing well. You are a special friend to me. your friend in recovery, cdb :)

Mark, so nice to here that things went well.  I was wondering alot about you.  You know keep the focus on others that impact me and keep the focus off of me.. hehe

Trust wow that is a big one and you did great by putting your self out their and I can only immagine the warmpth in your heart that you must be feeling.big smiles for you.  Thanks for posting

Your friend JJ

Thanks Megan, cdb, JJ and De anna!!! I appreciate your support and friendship. De anna, I am hopeful these days, just trying to take care that I dont get to hopeful to fast, but its not looking to terrible so far so yep it is a bit of releif. Cdb you will always be a special friend to me as well and I thank you for that. You are also right if in if I want my world to change maybe a little change in me is in order. JJ my friend it was good to see you smile, I feel pretty good about, given your health worries which I am prayin for. You look great with a smile!!! Thanks for the replies Mark S