My meeting was tonight and I was so looking forward to it as we had a AA speaker tonight and knew I needed to here what this person had to say. I never in a million years figured it would affect me so deeply or touch so many things in ME. I saw me in this speaker as a young teen, and it scared me. I also got so much more understanding and had many times where I went ok thats why. By the end I was so emotional I was greatful the speaker was done as I couldn't hold back my emotions and had to leave the room, I was crying. I sat right beside the speaker and caught myself wanting to reach for his hand while he talked and cried I have no idea why I had never met this person before. I will be thinking of this for a very long time. I am greatful for this speakers ESH.
Weekend.... Well my brother told my parents of his HIV and the weekend was so emotional. It hurts so much to see a parent hurt so bad and I believe that my support for my brother is meant to be in a way of helpping my parents understand the virus and have the understanding of a parent as well, right now it is all I am able to offer of myself to him in wasy of support and one day instead of all the resentment he feels he too will understand me as I one day will understand him.
I had all of the family at my house for Easter and it was nice to have all getting along. 16 Adults with our kids finally able to have a family dinner with no fighting. Serenity... yes...
Well I am signing off and have much more to post about my growth in me and my relationship with my brother but it will have to wait a few days.
I am asking for your prayers as I am having dental surgery tomorrow morning and absolutly TERRIFIED. Thank you for your support and the birthday wishes. oh p.s. I had a GREAT day and having it on good friday was a sign that it would be good.
Love your Friend JJ
cdb said
Mar 30, 2005
Wow jj,
What a powerful post. It is so great that everyone got a long well at your house. Maybe your calm and recovery skills are affecting those around you. I am especially happy for you kids. They need to be around that healthy interaction too. :)
I can only imagine how broken your parent's feel right now. It felt like I was being killed inside with my daughter's alcoholism.
I will sure say prayers for you..especially since I cannot sleep again. Maybe I am suppose to be awake to read this so I can say prayers for your dental surgery. Keep us posted. cdb
My meeting was tonight and I was so looking forward to it as we had a AA speaker tonight and knew I needed to here what this person had to say. I never in a million years figured it would affect me so deeply or touch so many things in ME. I saw me in this speaker as a young teen, and it scared me. I also got so much more understanding and had many times where I went ok thats why. By the end I was so emotional I was greatful the speaker was done as I couldn't hold back my emotions and had to leave the room, I was crying. I sat right beside the speaker and caught myself wanting to reach for his hand while he talked and cried I have no idea why I had never met this person before. I will be thinking of this for a very long time. I am greatful for this speakers ESH.
Weekend.... Well my brother told my parents of his HIV and the weekend was so emotional. It hurts so much to see a parent hurt so bad and I believe that my support for my brother is meant to be in a way of helpping my parents understand the virus and have the understanding of a parent as well, right now it is all I am able to offer of myself to him in wasy of support and one day instead of all the resentment he feels he too will understand me as I one day will understand him.
I had all of the family at my house for Easter and it was nice to have all getting along. 16 Adults with our kids finally able to have a family dinner with no fighting. Serenity... yes...
Well I am signing off and have much more to post about my growth in me and my relationship with my brother but it will have to wait a few days.
I am asking for your prayers as I am having dental surgery tomorrow morning and absolutly TERRIFIED. Thank you for your support and the birthday wishes. oh p.s. I had a GREAT day and having it on good friday was a sign that it would be good.
Love your Friend
JJ
Wow jj,
What a powerful post. It is so great that everyone got a long well at your house. Maybe your calm and recovery skills are affecting those around you. I am especially happy for you kids. They need to be around that healthy interaction too. :)
I can only imagine how broken your parent's feel right now. It felt like I was being killed inside with my daughter's alcoholism.
I will sure say prayers for you..especially since I cannot sleep again. Maybe I am suppose to be awake to read this so I can say prayers for your dental surgery. Keep us posted. cdb